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I Only Specialize in Unrequited Love

November 15th, 2005 (08:27 pm)

straylight Romeo: i only specialize in unrequited love.
Illusions NY: see that, I can relate to.
Illusions NY: why is it that we can TOTALLY accept each other's love?
straylight Romeo: because we know each-other more deeply than anyone else on earth.
Illusions NY: aren't there others either of us can let in?
straylight Romeo: as long as they have no romantic feelings for us whatsoever.

I whine alot about love. How I want it, how amazing it is, and especially how much it's hurt me.

Tonight, I broke a boy's heart. He was nothing but nice to me. Appreciated every single good quality that I have. He saw me, or at least was well on his way.

I was butterflies for him.

But he wasn't for me.

Despite his being perfect on paper ... it just didn't feel right. I got freaked out by someone actually liking me.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Can I really only fall for the ones that I don't have a chance with? Is it an unconscious sabotage on my part? Do I honestly fear being close with anyone so much that I'm only attracted to those I know will never feel anything towards me?

It's becoming a strangely viable option.

Because of my cavalier attitude, someone is crying tonight.

Karma is a bitch. And I deserve everything I get.

I'm sorry.

Comments

Posted by: Joshua Samuel Bandersnatch (neoacidcreep)
Posted at: November 18th, 2005 07:58 pm (UTC)

yup, deal with it

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